MOVED IN A BIG WAY

I just need to share this morning and well this was a good place to do it....and it's my blog! HeHeHe!!!!

My plan was to do my walking/training this morning at Redbud park after I watched Kamryn, my oldest granddaughter play volleyball at the rec center. By the way.....Kamryn made the winning serve!!!!! Just a little proud!!!!

Anyway after the game I moved my car to my usual parking place along the 1.5 mile trail. My goal was to walk 3 laps equaling 4.5 miles. It became very clear to me about half way through my first lap that I would be lucky to make one lap....

You see, this week has been an extremely hard week for me....I have struggled emotionally, mentally and most of all spiritually. Ken and I have felt God lead us to a decision that we.....or I should say "I" have been struggling with....which of course affects Ken. It has been a very difficult decision because of the emotions I have vested. 

I just need to insert here that Ken is an amazing husband and man of God. Nearly every night this week I have lain in his arms and cried.....leaving his shoulders drenched wet....a couple of times I had cried myself to sleep on his shoulder. He would gently roll me over, wrap his arm around me and I never new it until the next morning. I AM TRULY BLESSED BY THIS SWEET MAN!!!

I have struggled with God over this for the past 6-9 months.....questioning Him....pleading with him.....laying this burden at His feet only to pick it back up and try to come up with a solution on my own....only to fail miserably!!

As I began to struggle to make the first lap this morning on my walk, I began to pray.....one of the things I do and benefit the most from walking regularly!! But this time it was different....I turned off my music...pulled out my ear buds and just let it all out....

I  began to name off every burden that I was carrying....all the doubts, fears, the anxiety, the insecurity.....EVERYTHING....that I have been struggling with over the last 6 months. I must have been praying out loud for I began to notice the odd looks from others as I passed them.

At one point I reached up to wipe away what I thought was sweat only to realize I was crying.....I also realized not only had I made it one lap but was well on my way into my second lap. What I realized was that as I began to release my burdens to God one by one.....He was lifting them off my shoulders....one by one. I was being freed of my burdens as God began to give me the strength to take more and more steps on my walk. Not only for my physical walk around the park.....but also for my spiritual walk here on earth.

I immediately looked to the skies and I felt God....yes I FELT GOD'S PRESENCE!!! I smiled and I knew God was smiling down on me at that moment.

I can't put into words how this felt and the amazing feeling it was to realize.....again....that God is always willing to carrying my suitcase full of my burdens....each and every time I lay them at His feet. One of my hardest lessons to learn!!!! God is still teaching me to trust Him!

I made it 2 laps....3.5 miles....only with the help of God. You see....when I started out I felt I would be lucky to make one lap struggling to put one foot in front of the other.....along the way as I began to talk with God and release my burdens did my walk get easier and I got stronger.

From my corner of the world.....thanking God for showing up in a big way this morning!!!!!