It seems that the older I get the less I get done! I used to could run circles around myself.....always picking up the house....doing laundry.....mopping....sweeping....cooking....all in a couple of hours and still find time to play with the kids! Whew....just thinking about doing all that makes me tired. My mother used to tell me that I needed to stop and smell the roses and spend less time doing and more time being! (stop and think about that one)
I reminded myself of Martha....always organizing...preparing.....getting things done.....not spending the time to be still and let God speak to me. However, as I have gotten older I have slowed down a lot. Having a clean house is not quite as important as it once was. Having everything put in its place and out of sight doesn't seem to matter to me as much. Or at least that is what I tell myself. When in fact it really does bother me....I just can't seem to get this old body up and moving like I used to.....I hope that some of this is making sense!!
Anyway, I find that I come home from work, sit down to rest....and I am still sitting "resting" when it is time to go to bed. What is up with that!!! LOL Am I being lazy? Probably!!! Do I have the motivation....not so much.....do I regret sitting and "resting" all night....YES!!! But I still do it. I do what I know I shouldn't do even though I tell myself in the morning that tonight is going to be different. Guess what.....come evening.....back to "resting"!! UGH!
I find myself doing this a lot.....telling myself I'm going to do something.....something good even....and then not following through with it. It can be something as simple as putting the load of towels in the wash when I get home...simple right....doesn't always get done! OR it could be telling myself that I am going to call my friend who had knee replacement surgery a couple of weeks and check on her....see how she is doing.....not hard....doesn't happen!
I have the good thought....the good intention but I fail to follow through. I ask myself is this the same as having an evil thought but not following through??? In Matthew 5 Jesus is talking about adultery but He says that if you have the lustful thoughts and do not act on it...you still sin in your heart (my words). Is the same true...when you have good thoughts....good intentions to do good and you do not follow through is it still sinful? The old saying "The road to heaven is paved with good intentions" rings true here. I don't want to get to heaven and have God ask me why I didn't take food to my sister who was sick and my answer be....."I meant to....I wanted to".
People I just don't think that is living out Jesus in our lives! Am I guilty.....you bet!! I can have all the good thoughts...."meant to's"......wanted to's......NOT GOING TO DO ME ANY GOOD!
I have to do the things that I know I need to do and continually strive to not do the things that I know I shouldn't.
" For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do - this I keep on doing." Romans 7:18-19
I so can relate to what Paul is talking about here.....I know I shouldn't act the way that I am acting and I know the way I should be acting BUT I keep in doing and acting the way that I don't want to act!!! Whew a mouthful! You get my drift! (I hope anyway?)
As Christians, we have to act on our good thoughts our good intentions!! It does us no good to think about doing good it we don't follow through! I ask again....is it a sin to not act on our good thoughts?? You tell me.....personally I believe it is....for me it's not enough to think about doing good....I have to follow through!!
Father, please forgive me for not following through with the good you have placed on my heart. Please allow me more opportunities to do Your good work.
From my corner of the world......striving to get up off the couch!!!
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